Sometimes, it is hard for me to choose a direction in my life when there are a lot of paths. I become paranoid in this type of situation. I always make a mystery about myself. People think something is very obvious about me but this is actually not. I am not that much obvious. I feel sometimes I don't know myself either. What I wanted to study, I did not choose it. I could not break the cycle. The cycle is killing me. I sometimes think of letting go everything and start a new. But how to get everything, every environment is fresh to start! Though it is a state of mind sometimes to think of everything as new. Sometimes I become stronger than surface, sometimes softer than lily. After all, I cannot escape the gravity. Life goes on in its way so do I.
